Sleepless with the enemy
it's 3am here and I'm sleepless. reading news sites and Lebanese blogs and commenting so much someone decided i get paid by the foreign ministry. Actually, I'm afraid soon enough they'll offer to pay me in order to shut up.
a couple of hours ago i wrote quite a Zionist post, full of belief in our air force, but i don't like what I'm reading now, the continuous attacks seem irrational and even crazy. they attack places in which our ground forces activate which is completely unlike them, and somehow every one gets killed besides Hezbollah! things i defended an hour ago make me feel stupid or stunned.
I'm confused and I'm torn between all i grew up on and things i hear from individual soldiers, and... the facts. are they facts? what are facts in days of twisted media, psychological wars and digital imaging? how odd is it, that i find authentic bits of sanity I'm willing to call truth only in personal narratives in "enemies" blogs... should I call them enemies? since it seems I'll find myself in this position tomorrow, like it or not. on one hand i want my army to defend me from Hezbollah aggression but on the other hand they must stop those air raids immediately before it evolves into WW3! can both requests exist in the same reality?
I want to be realistic and able to change my opinions in present tense but those quick twists are exhausting. I think I'm going to rest for a couple of days and encourage our other guest women writers working on their posts to hurry up and step inside. stay tuned.