I Love to Hate you
Funny, i started this blog out of frustration, i wanted people in the world to know so many people in Israel don't agree with all of this and speak it up but the more i read Lebanese bloggers and the more i try to write, all my school years of Zionist breeding bursts out of me. in Hebrew blogs i attack my country and in English blogs i defend it like hell. i hear it happens to more people, i mean, we are what we are, after all. the good news is we are open minded. so, although this is the most Zionist post I'll ever write (i promise to get back to my doubtful self), i hope you'll live through it:
Israel doesn’t start wars but it usually wins them. It always starts with a legitimate defense but pretty soon you can't tell the difference between reacting and over-reacting. Army officials would of course explain they're doing only the minimum necessary to create a "safety belt". I would so very much want to believe them, because I served in this strong and moral army, I know soldiers who really shoot and cry. But this IDF entity seems bigger than its sum of individual soldiers and in foreign reports or in the Lebanese blogs I read, it sounds pretty scary. I would like to condemn and defend my army in the same sentence. I'm lost.
In the second season of "Lost" we meet the ex-cop Ana-Lucia who abuses the wrong people and kills some by mistake while trying to protect the group from "the others". When people question her actions she asks: "have I not kept you alive so far?" somehow, as you follow those episodes you come to understand she's doing her best, but no one follows us that closely and somehow we end up being hated again. Being hated is what we do best. It seems Israel is going to conquer the south of Lebanon and "clean" it off Hezbollah. We'll be an occupation army again, convincing ourselves, as usual, that we have no other choice and it's the only way to protect ourselves. Pretty soon the world will forget who started this and why, and we will be condemned, because the world is always for the underdog and we would rather die than broadcast our weakness.
I think Jewish people are so sick and tired of being victims that they will do anything not to appear weak again. Half of Israel is refugees, running south; only yesterday 210 rockets were fired at us and people die on daily basis, but somehow this is not what the world sees on TV. As part of some stupid psychological war against Hezbollah, Israel wants to appear strong and the price is that the whole world sees us as the aggressor. I need you (hence, the world) to know we suffer too. And we are on the same side, because the border doesn't fall between Lebanon and Israel to me, but between two ideologies trying to shoot each other pointlessly and the people caught in the fire between them.
The absurd is that the only reason we're going to war is in order to refrain from hurting Lebanese citizens. I don't know if people realize how easy it is for the Israeli air force to wipe out all those villages in one night. The only reason our soldiers die on daily basis fighting door to door, is because Israel tries to involve as less civilians as possible. It frustrates me so much that people judge IDF's actions without realizing this basic fact.
I hate this war in its macro level, I think it's vicious and pointless and I long for anything from the UN to gray aliens to put an end to it. But on the micro level, I trust the soldiers. The newly drafted reserve forces are my friends and neighbors and I know they'll do their best when it comes to sparing civilians. Although there are problematic ideological pockets in this country, the majority of soldiers don’t fight from deep hate or a sacred cause, they just want to get back home to their families and high tech jobs. So how do you deal with an enemy that destroying you is his main reason for living?
On my last post I wondered about those soldiers dying for my sake, but the truth is they're dying for Lebanese people's sake. I bet you that if the Americans lived here, they would have finished this from the air, justifying the killing of civilians with a good PR system, like they did in Afghanistan and Iraq that didn’t even threaten them directly. I'm wondering if any other country would have acted differently if it had to live in this place. Remember how the British freaked out after one terror attack and started shooting everyone who looked Muslim in the train? Being the only democracy around here is why we even bother to listen to the rest of the world, but please, people, cut us some slack. (I'm trying to do this as well today)